A princess cut. Yes, absolutely. With white gold of course, as yellow gold is too conventional. Perhaps 3/4 of a carat if I'm lucky or maybe even a whole one!

It would be in October (again, or so I hope), with a costume party instead of a reception. Halloween has always been my favorite holiday. I would want a small get together for everyone in my party and my mother for a burn before the ceremony, and tell them how grateful I am to have them in my life. I'm not sure who it'll be yet though. Alison will be one. Tara will as well. Cinthia if she could make it. I can't really think of anyone else. I'd like them to wear a deep green. Or red?

But I will wear white. Something slimming and elegant and that will make me look glowing. Minimal make-up. I think I look better without it anyway.

Above and beyond that, I don't care. I don't care if we have dinner or a honeymoon or religion or gifts or flowers or how my hair looks or how he looks. None of it, do I give two shits about. All I care about is what the event means. The acknowledgment that there is another half to your orange and embracing it.

....Now can someone explain what the bloody fuck has come over me? When did I decide that I want to get married as soon as possible? I wish this were something I could talk to Corey about. I would like to know that we're on the same page. But I don't want to scare him.

I'm beginning to wonder if the only reason I'm in a rush is because I want to do this before he changes his mind and decide he doesn't love me.