I'm whipped.

Today was the first time I saw Fran since what I so affectionatley call 'the kiss' in my heart. I started shaking and I had to be careful how often I looked into his eyes. What if I got lost?

When we're together, I forget to breathe. My brain shuts down and I don't think like I should. No words transfer except "Wow". I have no idea why he affects me so much.

When I leave him to go to class, I'm shaking and easy to make smile, but I feel empty at thesame time and I can feel my heart breaking. Sometimes I feel physically sick. Sometimes I really want to cry. Right now I'm super happy because I saw him, but at the sametime I can't help but wonder if I would feel like this if I hadn't.

I feel betrayed in this insanely ridiculous way becuase Fran and I can be open with our feelings for each other, but for some reason it's so incredible hush hush with the others. I want to tell the world that I love him.

I love him....