No Wes. This is a problem. She's going to LIVE with you.

I'm lost. I'm fucking lost. Wes' girlfriend is moving up... I will be forgotten by this man. I hate this. It's ridiculous and I don't understand why the hell I didn't just go to university. I mean what if, hypothetically I would have had his baby? Hmm? Would he leave me like this? Would I blame him? Can I now?

No. Because he loves her, but I put my ASS on the line for him. I staked all of my pride on this relationship. Hah! Not only my pride, please. I put my god damn reputation on the line! It's not like this relationship was looked on as a good thing. A older man? A father? With a near minor? No no, none of that. Even my boss considered firing me. I'm not a slut. I'm not promiscuous.

I was a girl in love. Well, I thought I was atleast. But do I wait? Do I wait for this ignorant fool to come crawling back like he's done once before? I don't want to grovel. I want him to grovel. I want him to realize that I was there for him no matter what. I stood behind him. I rubbed his back and kissed his cheek when his world blew up. I programmed his ipod for him without any reason other than his safety (He seriously could have fucked that shit up) and happiness.

"I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes,
they're all I can see I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all"

Oh yeah?

And we wait above a road.
We're turning to go home.
And the silence from the side of the car
Tells me everything and how we are.
'Cause there's no more trying to make this so right,
There's no more trying tonight.
And you know it's not so easy when you're all alone.
And I wonder if I'm alone in your head.
I know something is wrong, I just dont know what to do.
You say it's only me and that I'm so perfect for you.
I don't want to try no more, I dont want to make this right.
I just want you to be true to me, one time.
Twelve days gone by since I have saw you last.
I'll give this one more try, I'll give it all my best.
And I'll ask "What could you be doing that is so much fun?
without me by your side?"
And I will take a step back, and I'll let you ahead.
And I will take a step away and see if you come back.
Because there's no more trying to make this so right,
There's no more trying, there's no more trying tonight.
We will never be the same.
We will never be the same until you're done.

And when I unexpectedly groveled and asked for him back?

Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight?
No I don't think she has a clue

Ooooh but she does. She knows damned well. Just as I know.

Wrong or right
Be mine tonight
Harsh world be damned
We'll make a stand
Love can bind
But mine is blind
Others stray but I won't
Walk away....