André has been a very nice guy to me lately. He knew I was depressed a few days ago, and contemplating suicide. He talked to me and even told me that I would be missed a lot and that my host family is looking foreward to getting me. I was kinda surprised that a Brazilian exchange student would understand some of the things I talked about (like suicide).

So we've become progressively closer, André and I. I asked him if he wanted to go to the Winter Formal, or 'Snowcoming'. I made my dress. It's made of black rayon that goes down to the ankles. I embrodered a black butterfly on the back for a special effect. I dunno what I'm doing with my hair, cause it's so damn short now. I was told it'd be cute just plain down and stuff, but I dunno. I don't want that.

But I think for some reason, I'm trying to impress him. Impress him?! Why would I do that? It's just...André. Sigh. I think I'm looking on ebay now.