Annie Jones on: I hate it....

This new host family situation isn't cool.

So two nights ago, I was in the house and my 'family' had guests over. Lily was drunk and she said 'Go upstairs and get your flute. You got to play.'

I said I wasn't comfortable with doing it, that I really didn't want to play in front of a bunch of people. She said she didn't care and she forced me upstairs, got my flute and basically shoved me down the stairs. She made me play in front of everyone, and then she totally ignored me afterwards. Like she left when I started playing. I basically said fuck her and went upstairs.

Yesterday however, she really got to me. I was swimming in the pool and she came out and swam with me. She started questioning me all about my past nd then she said "Why did you try suicide?"

I said I didn't like to talk about that part of my life; that it was 'over' (even though we all know that's bullshit). She kept asking though. "That's stupid, Annie. Anyone who tries suicide is stupid. Life is worth more than that. What made you to be such an idiot to try to commit suicide?"

"I don't remember anything from that time. I forgot it all." I said.

"You're lying!" She said. "I'm a doctor! I know!"

'You're a gynocologist! You're not a fucking shrink!' I thought.

I hate it there. So much. I honestly feel like shit....