Alex and I had a little talk. You can guess who is who.

4 days until Calvin and 53 days until Argentina! says:
Well you want to go to Jfax....
14 days until Calvin and 53 days until Argentina! says:
And you know how I see it?
14 days until Calvin and 53 days until Argentina! says:
~Smacks hand on table and eyes brim with tears~ I haven't been invited to do shit with anyone except for you. You go to that 'spring fever' dance and everyone around me is buzzing with anticipation and everyone asks everyone else if their going and I hear someone ask if I was going and the other person said 'who cares?'
14 days until Calvin and 53 days until Argentina! says:
Do you how much is sucks to be cast off from a group of people you were once trusted with your entire life? That you would do anything for them? Died for them to make them happy? And the sad thing is that I'd still do it. If it's make everyone happy then I'd do it. But I know that there are about 3 people out there that would do the same for me, and that's who I live for.
Spikey says:
i'm sorry
Spikey says:
to be honestly lately i haven't been invited to do shit
14 days until Calvin and 53 days until Argentina! says:
~Wipes eyes~ No one gives a shit.
14 days until Calvin and 53 days until Argentina! says:
I haven't been invited to do anything since the begining of high school.
Spikey says:
-holds her- you've been almost forgotten
Spikey says:
you seemed to go your own way
Spikey says:
really i was trying to change that
14 days until Calvin and 53 days until Argentina! says:
Because I didn't want anyone to see how hurt I was by being left behind...so I tried to find friends....
Spikey says:
no one really has a problem with you or anything
Spikey says:
you just became silent
14 days until Calvin and 53 days until Argentina! says:
And then I get accepted into Rotary but I never see them. And then Mina is going home and so in Andre and truth betold. I'm scared shitless about Argentina.
Spikey says:
yeah i don't blame ya
14 days until Calvin and 53 days until Argentina! says:
And I don't want to go becayse I'm leaving people that don't even care! So it's this big....stupid circle that I'm stuck in!
Spikey says:
people care
Spikey says:
they don't show it
Spikey says:
but they do
Spikey says:
i've talked to most of em about it
Spikey says:
anyways
14 days until Calvin and 53 days until Argentina! says:
But there's this underlying thing.
Spikey says:what?
14 days until Calvin and 53 days until Argentina! says:
I don't like how things have become.... and I know it's selfish. I miss Joz being how she used to be. I miss Meri not knowing who Kenny was. I miss Ariana and I being together all the time and not having to worry about her replacing me and hurting me....
14 days until Calvin and 53 days until Argentina! says:
And something from the past was us too.
14 days until Calvin and 53 days until Argentina! says:And while I don't like you....I like acting like we do, because it makes me feel that it's possible to go back to that time and make everything okay...
Spikey says:
i hate the cliche but, things change
Spikey says:
how do you think joz changed?
14 days until Calvin and 53 days until Argentina! says:
I'm not even going to get into that......
Spikey says:
ok
14 days until Calvin and 53 days until Argentina! says:
You know one of the reasons I liked you do much?
Spikey says:
why?
14 days until Calvin and 53 days until Argentina! says:~Wipes eyes~ It's because I could wake up everyday, look myself in the mirror and say that because someone loved me as much as their own life.....
14 days until Calvin and 53 days until Argentina! says:I looked in the mirror and saw that I was beautiful.
14 days until Calvin and 53 days until Argentina! says:I haven't seen it since.
14 days until Calvin and 53 days until Argentina! says:
That's why you were different.
Spikey says:
that i cared?
14 days until Calvin and 53 days until Argentina! says:
That you loved me.