So this weekend came and went...and painful as it was; would I do it again?

In a heartbeat.

It feels familiar though. It's almost as if I've dreamed this entire conference before, down to the minute details. The only thing that challenges my theory is that I never could have dreamed or even thought of such elation and such pain.

I'm sure that the all nighter I pulled with the kids from my district (62! 90!) didn't help get my emotions on track. Making new friends from other districts didn' make it easier for me to say good bye, but in return I found it easier to make better memories from Calvin. Kiss and cry, Kleenex and Kodak Calvin Conference.

Getting away from this exchange thing...

All these people here are fucking crazy and immature. I don't know how long I can't take this! People can go out with whoever they wish. If you wish to shun them, go for it. Have fun. Girls are fucking stupid.

Girl 1 is mad because she thinks that Girl 2 likes Alex. Girl 1 thinks Alex is a liar because he says he doesn't like Girl 2. Who says everyone has to like someone all the time? It just so happens that I have a little crush almost all the time. It doesn't mean that I would consider them dateable, but rather just cute or nice. ~Shrugs~ Is that why other girls don't understand me?

Girl 1 thinks honestly, from the bottom of her heart, that the entire world is out to get her. She's being self-centered. I'm sorry if I have other friends that I like to have fun with too. I can't play baby-sitter. What if I wanted to hang out with someone different? Would I be 'shunned'? Would I even give a shit? (HINT: The answer isn't yes.)

I can't wait to leave. Oh dio fucking mio...I'm gonna cry again.