I have a song...it's really how I feel.

"There's a piece of you that's here with me
It's everywhere I go, it's everything I see
When I sleep, I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight
That you're here tonight

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

I remember the look in your eyes
When I told you that this was goodbye
You were begging me not tonight
Not here, not now
We're looking up at the same night sky
And keep pretending the sun will not rise
Be together for one more night
Somewhere, somehow..."

It's perfect really.

The guy I like....he still doesn't know. He'll be at my party though, so I guess I'll tell him there. Or the day I leave. I have a hair appointment on Saturday before my party. I shouldn't have waited so long. There's so much I feel I need to say and do.

I want to tell this guy I love him. In the perfect world, he'd say he feels the same way. Well maybe not. I don't want to fall in love, know he loves me too then leave for a year. Ouch. That hurts.

I'll write later....I'm not so much in a writing mood. I'm thinking too much to put my thoughts into words.