It’s not possible is it? Possible that since my parents are gone and I’m staying with my Nana…that I actually kind of miss them? I feel…awful because I don’t want to miss them. There’s only one reason however why I do miss them. My Nana is kinda….driving me up a wall. I’m so far up that hypothetical wall I’m walking upside down on the ceiling.

I’ve had kind of a hard week. I need Jake for some reason. I’ve been really independent from him lately and I feel like I don’t need him. It’s almost like I didn’t like him anymore. But all of a sudden, I woke up one morning and thought….I love him. I want to be with him. Amazing isn’t it?

I went my cousin’s birthday party today. She’s turning 7. I felt so old; being twice as old as nearly everyone there. She seemed disappointed that my mother and I got her clothes. Granted, my mom never told me what she got her, but I felt responsible. I’m glad I got her a package of suckers.

18 days! Only 18 days until I find out where I’m exchanging to. I’m so excited….

Can’t focus. TV is on. It’s taken me forever to type this… Bye.