I need to get this out. I need to scream at the top of my lungs until I don't have any voice left.

But this will have to do.

I can't stand ANYONE here right now. My Dad is bothering me A LOT, my friends are annoying as sin...but there's District 6970one person I want to be around. He doesn't want me to smother him, and that's exactly what I feel I'm doing. I want to be with Alex. Just hang out with him. Sit on his couch and talk about stupid shit until 3 am. That's a lot of time to be spending with one person though.

We wrestled yesterday on the lawn and he kicked my ass. He knocked me down so that the back of my head and a spot about the size of a large potato on the left side just above my ass. I love to play, but that hurt. ^_^*

Work today was frustrating because the entire time I was thinking "This is such a waste of time! I could be out with friends! I mean, Alex!"

Mina is leaving tomorrow morning. Her flight leaves at 10:45 am. Early up again tomorrow. It's worth it though. I wonder if she'll ever come back. I tend to doubt it and that hurts, but knowing that she came here, had a good time and leaves with experiences that she'll never forget...it's gratifying. It's hard to believe that in a year from now, I'll know how she felt.

Well lets try to analyze this situation. Alex and I are...screwing around? Yeah, that'll work. But whatever way you look at it, we have a physical relationship. When we have that physical touch, I feel invincible. Like I'm the only one he sees in the world. I like thatfeeling. It reminds me of when we went out. I don't really want to go out with him again, especially seeing that I'm leaving in 22 days.

Wow. Only 22 days.

Por favor, tu estas con mi.