It's pretty funny how this house sounds to me right now. I'm listening to Eminem and my parents are watching 'It's A Wonderful Life'. What would happen if I didn't exist? Err nothing much. The world would probably be happier since all I spread now is depression.

I'm a depressing person. When I was 13, I was such a happy girl. Then 8th grade rolled around and hell broke loose. I don't understand what happened to my brain, but something definately did.

I lost him when I was 14. April 18th, 2002. I think that may have progressed it. The only time I was happy during that time was when I was with him. We were so incredibly in love. So fiercly in love. It doesn't seem like we could experience that since we're so young...but we did. When we looked at each other, you couldn't break our gaze. It was so amazing.