Merry Fucking Christmas. I have no idea why I'm so upset. I guess I do. I've been taking dieting pills and exercising (not nearly as much as I should) and I'm staying the same size, if not bigger. I'm huge. I hate it beyond explanation.Sometimes I'm ready to slice open my stomach, and do liposuction with a vacuum. I know...it's disgusting.

He got me something. I don't know what it is, but in that spiteful, bitchy way, I want to look at him, roll my eyes and say "I never wanted anything from you." Dammit, dammit, dammit, dammit, dammit! I HATE MY LIFE!