I took him for a very long ride though. Cruising along the bay front going 35, went up a huge hill....and rode through the orchard my grandfather and I used to pick cherries. I found a tree that still had the few remaining berries of the season. I could reach them. I silently pouted at my shortness (or shortcomings. [insert sarcasm] Ha! How witty can I get?!) and jumped as high as I could to grab a branch and shake it. Lo and behold, it worked!
I loaded up my glove box with sweet cherries and when I finished....I stood there. The wind blew wisps of my hair across my face and I could hear my child self running and laughing. I looked back to my moped with a saddened look on my face.
"I'm going to put you on medications. Hopefully, this will help you become happy again."
"I know about your razor, Steph....it's in your angel dish on your dresser."
"Dammit Steph! Stop fucking cutting yourself!" "Why?! Why the hell would you fucking care anyway?!" "I'm your god damn boyfriend that's why!"
"I can't be with you anymore, not with Bryan around." "Are you crying?" "I never said this would be easy, Steph...."
Just one quick slit....no one cares anyway. Just a few more...that's all I need.
"Welcome to hell, I mean East Junior High. I'm Stephanie." "I'm Kendall. Thanks for the welcome."
"He loves you Steph, he's just blinded by that slut, what's her name again?" "Erm...Meredith?" "Yeah her." "She's not really a slut..."
"I think I love him." "Who? ....Zavy?!" "Y-yeah. I know it's useless though." "No no! It's sweet...but he has a girlfriend, right?"
"I don't have a date for Farewell either ya know. Do you wanna go with me?"
"So how was everything?!" "Oh my god, it was wonderful! It was the best night of my life!"
"Do you like me?" "Yeah." "Justin?"
"You know there is something better than what we had. You just have to keep searching." "And that makes me want to scream!"
Now to wipe my eyes, take a deep breath....and leave you here.
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