Ichi - "That one with wisdom"
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What would your Japanese name be? (female)
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He left with Amber for lunch.

I sat in his empty seat, with my cup of diet coke, staring at a spot on the table.

“Where did he go?” Brandi asked.

“Out,” I said not removing my eyes from the spot on a table, “with Amber.”

“Oh.” Brandi says. “Are you okay with that?”

I look up at her, then to everyone around the table. Brandi, to Tom, to Mikey, to Toni, to Brandi’s friend….

“Not really.” I look down again and pull the straw in and out of the top. “It’s so stupid and selfish and ignorant, but I still like him. I want to be his girlfriend again so badly, it’s like a constant ache.”

“Why don’t you tell him?” Tom asked.

“He knows.”

“How would he know?”

“Let’s just say that we were doing something and I started crying and I said it was because I missed what we had.”

“He needs to be told stuff. You’re a subtle person for the most part. He’s not. He needs to be told to be sure.” Tom said.

I sighed and got up from the table. I was extremely early for Theater Arts.

Amber, on the other hand was very late, and showed up with her uneaten lunch.

“Where did you guys go?” I asked her non-chalantly.

“Cuppa Joe’s. We just got sandwiches.”

Now that’s peculiar, because Cuppa Joe is just down the street. It’s about a 5 minute walk and unless Cuppa Joe was busy (which it isn’t, it’s a takeout deli type thing with coffee and pre-made sandwiches that’s only busy on weekends) they could have easily eaten it there or eaten it at school and still be back at school on time. We have 45 minutes for lunch for chrissake!

I’m probably being so anal retentive, but god, I’m feeling like such a reject! I want him to hold me, and love me, and…ugh! I want him! I want to be with him! I want to be his world! I want to shake him and tell him that I love him and he just doesn’t get it….

Meri asked me why I looked so scared. I told her that I was worried about the guy I liked. She passed me a note and asked who it was.

Meri-Chan,

It’s obvious, right? I mean, who else would it be? ^_^* Anyway, what’s up? I’m pretty excited about Brandi’s party. You wanna help me DJ? Later.

Stephanie

P.S. If you need a hint, I’m worried about Amber.

Christ, I’ve written about 1 and ¾ of a page. I’m leaving you here.