I’ll wake up and all my muscles are seized up and in a lot of pain and my clothes are wet from a cold sweat. So you can imagine the next morning it feels like I’ve gotten zero sleep at all.
I…apologized to Princess Meri on Friday. Of course, I’m too much of a pussy to say: “It’s all my fault. You didn’t tell me something, big deal. Please forgive me. I want to be friends again.” So what do you think I did? What else do I do with my life? I write.
Meri,
Damn, this is gonna be difficult to write. Have you notice how I can’t really look you in the face for too long? That’s shame.
It’s been a long year, filled with evil shit I’ve said and done. This whole stupid grudge was because of him.
And you know how I look at it now? Big deal. You didn’t tell me something, big fucking deal.
I have to write this on paper because I’m just too shy to say it outloud. I’m sorry. I want your forgiveness. I want to go back to the way things were when we were friends and we didn’t fight...as much.... Anyway, I don’t expect us to be great friends again, not like you and Rini (though I wouldn’t mind).
Just please, accept this apology and let’s make all this stupid shit stop.
Peace, Love, Happiness,
Stephanie
And she responded today….
Stephanie,
Hi, I haven’t said hi to you in a while…Yes, I have noticed your disliking-ness towards me. It’s sad to think of the reason all of this started, I mean c’mon, it was him! -_- Truthfully, I was upset to lose a friend like you. I won’t lie, you weren’t and still aren’t an easy person to get along with sometimes, but still you are a good friend.
As far as forgiveness goes, what’s to forgive? lol I can understand being upset about what happened, I would have been too (not for as long as you, but that’s the way I am). I’m kind of the person who just shrugs things off (like the toilet water thing [Me: SHE’S KNOWS?! OH HOW TERRIBLY MORTIFYING!] but that was really funny. I’m used to crap like that pulled on me :-)) But if you must hear it…I forgive you. ^_~ I would really like to be friends again, things were more fun that way. Oh yeah, I have like, NO romantic/any interest in him so uh…if you still….uh…yeah, just go ahead not a problem anymore. (Though I know you could find someone much more…not him…) lol. Don’t get me wrong, he’s a nice guy, he’s just…him…. Anyway, let’s just go back to the good ol’ times!
Meri
P.S. He just seems more like a brother to me….
It’s the most amazing feeling. I got all my friends back I lost on that hell of a night in October of last year. And even better still, she supports him and I. And the better yet, she said I could get better than him. But the best of all, is that Princess Meri, is no longer Princess Meri. She is just plain and simple Meri or Meredith, my friend.
“And suddenly it seems like my shoulder blades have just shifted.
It's like the greatest gift you could get.
The weight has been lifted.”
‘Hailie’s Song’
Eminem
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