Teendom right now is so...unappealing. Ha, but then again was it ever?

I look in the mirror and think: "Jake sees this and still loves me?" I turn around, and look myself over. "Does my butt look huge?" I'm expecting a guy to pop out of my closet at any moment with a microphone, a cheesy suit, and an announcer voice and say: "This moment is brought to you by adolecence!" It's ridiculous!

I've thought about it over and over. Jake is running a mile everyday to improve himself. He doesn't like the way he looks apparently (See, I don't understand it. He's perfect in my eyes), so he's going out and running everyday. Isn't that so admirable? I would love to do something like that. The only problem is that I never ran in the first place. Jake used to be a runner.

Nevertheless, I'd like to take up a sport again. I did karate for a while and that'd be fun to start again.

Downhill racing. Now there's a sport that I'm good at. I've been skiing since I could stand up on skis. If I could have joined earlier this year, then I'd be kicking some major ass on the slopes. Skiing is the reason my legs look so huge.

Swimming was another thing I was good at. I haven't actually done it for a race since I was 6 or 7, but when I did it, I was like a fish.

Dad has been trying to get me into tennis since I quit swimming. I think he just wants to see me like those bitchy girls on the Trojan tennis team. I should ask him if he wants me to consider everyone below my status.

Random Questions:

What song best describes your life?
"Hold On" by Good Charlotte.

Just how many guys have you gone through?
Less than you'd think. Jake is number 5. Chris, Kyle, Him, Bryan, Jake. (These are real boyfriends. More than 1 month. If we're talking everyone I've said yes to, it might be eight.)

What kind of music is in your car?
I've got the Chicago Soundtrack, Drumline Soundtrack, an alternate rock mix, a rap mix, and a disco mix. My favorite is probably...umm disco, but surprisingly, it's the one I listen to the least.

What is the most common type of dream you have?
Probably where someone I love dies or leaves me. I very rarely have happy dreams.

If you were a spirit, what would you be?
Anyone who knows me would probably say a death spirit, and I'd have to agree.

Any words you say repeatedly?
Groovy, dammit (I say that one all the time at work), sweet, score, dumbass.

And all that jazz. Goodnight folks.