Oh my god I didn't mean it. I want to live. I want to live for so many reasons. I want to live for the mornings that I wake up with Poogle Buddy in my arms and tears rolling down my face. I want to live for the daily text message that says a simple good morning. I want to live for the smiles, the frowns, the tears.... everything.

I am in love and I live for him.

An explanation... in all honesty I've just woken up from a terrible, terrible dream. You know the kind of dream you see in movies, then when the person wakes up, they swear they'll change their life and treat people better? That's the one. It was a dream so real that I'm still not sure if it happened or not (I pray to God above that it didn't).

No no no no no no no no no. I can't believe how selfish and childish I was acting yesterday. Please God, help me make everything better.