The girl in the play who is playing Belle is dropping out. Since I've switched casts, I've become close with her. Her voice went to shit two weeks ago. She went to the doctor last night and he told her that it won't return to normal for another two months. I'm overjoyed and yet so upset at the same time. Her name is Maddy, and she's so nice. We listen to rap that include the word fuck in it several times a chorus. (I can tell by the look in your eyes that you wanna fuck. And you don't need to call me your 'boo' cause as bad as you wanna fuck, I wanna fuck you.) Not to mention our famous Hippo song. ( I am a hippo. I am a hippo. Hippo hippo hippo. H-I-P-P-O hippo hippo. I am a hippo. [and so on.])

So am I in? Not officially. I was walking back from biology (alone. Colt wasn't there today.) and I asked her if her voice was getting better.

"No, and I'm dropping out." She said.

"Maddy! No! Don't do that! You're a great actress and you succeded in getting that role! What an honor. I'm the freaking underchild! (Dennis calls me that.) Don't quit! Why would you wanna do that?"

"Because I went to the doctor's last night and he said that I won't get better soon. It'll take atleast a month for my voice to get back to normal and I can't talk other than someone right beside me. You know that."

"It's been two weeks already Mad, just give it a little time!" I pleaded.

"No. Besides, Roe is getting to me." She said. I smiled at this.

I wish she wouldn't drop out. She really is great. My casts opening night is a week from tonight. I know Belle's lines. I know everyone's lines really. I feel so bad....

He is on light board. Yay! He'll be at my practice tomorrow. Having just him there almost makes up for not having Laney, Zavy, Chris and Dennis there. Quality, not quantity lots of people say. I agree, but it's not like I don't miss them. Of course I do! We became really close in a really short amount of time. Oh but here I am rambling on! Fuck it, I'll have him there. Someone to lean back on.

I was putting my shit in my locker after I talked to Maddy and he came up behind me and hugged me. It was a nice change of pace.

"Just wanted to do that." He said smiling. I was shocked really.

I was a playful and happy chick for study hall. (My study hall teacher was mad pissed when I said I didn't want to do anything.)