Dear Ariana,
I miss you so much. What in hell happened? You met Merideth, spend one summer with her and I’m dropped like a hot pop-tart on a cold kitchen floor.
I hate Meri’s soul, sweetie. She took my best friend and best thing I had going for me. It wasn’t Alex, and everyone should know it isn’t Bryan. It was you. You were the thing I had going for me.
Are we still going to Toronto the summer before senior year? Just you and me girl…please.
I wish I could rewind time when it was just you and me. Fuck the others. I love you Rainy. You’re like my sister.

Dear Kendall,
I’m missing you too, and I hate admitting it. How do you think it feels to lose someone I thought I’d be close to for the rest of my life?
You knew how my mind worked. You knew what was missing and you tried your damndest to fill it.
You filled it too.

Mer-Mer-Care-Bear,
If only he didn’t exist huh? You know how it does. I lost three of my best friends overnight because of you.
You are the one who is killing me, sweetpea. The razor in my back pocket is all because of you.
You were one of the three I lost.

Bryan,
Sweetheart, with all due respect, you are an ass. If I never would have met you, I really think my life would be better. No black nail polish, tear stained face, or scarred arms.
Take me, leave me, fuck me, forget me. Do whatever, but I’m not your toy.

Dear Zavy,
Thanks. You always make me feel so unbearable beautiful outside and in, eve when I know I’m not and never will be. You may not understand me, but you try. That’s what really matters.
Thanks anyways. By the way…Colt…I’m falling for him fast.

Dear Katrina,
Faithful friend. Undying prep, but always faithful friend. You don’t really understand me either, but it’s cool. You listened and that’s why I love ya! You helped with Kendall, Stacy, Ariana, Princess Meri, him, Colt, blah, blah, blah. Thank you so much.

Colt-
I thought that after everything that happened in the last year, I never could imagine that I’d have feelings for anyone else. It happened. You’re a great guy. We arm wrestle, trade jokes, protect each other from Justin, talk, and even hug each other everyday.
You know about it, and if I could be with anyone, it’d be you. He won’t love me and it’s okay. I have you. It’s so cheesy. I want to ask you out, but I promised myself not to seek love, but it’ll find me, and that I’m afraid. I don’t want to be hurt.
You’re just like me. I wish you wanted a girlfriend. I want you.

And The God Himself,
You fucking rock my world. You, my love, have caused more trouble than your worth and I loved every minute of it. I’d make sense that I would stop following you. Nah. Trouble with you was too much fun to get into.
It’s stupid, but I wanna be your playmate. I wanna be the one who jokes with you, arm wrestles with you, and just be stupid together. I want to be your physical friend. The one who you can push around and vise versa. Do stupid shit.
I won’t forget the last kiss you gave me though. Long, and weakening. Your kisses always left me needing more. Damn, I hate you.
I know you never really wanted Andy, but I did. He’d be turning one this month. It’s my fault.
I’m on the road to falling out. And I’m getting there fast. Now if Merideth moved, it’d be so much easier….lol.