I cheated again today by eating a cup of yogurt that was 19 carbs, one below my limit for the day and I already had something like 10. I ran into the bathroom with my spoon and gagged myself until I threw it all back up. Tears ran down my face. I hate that. Whenever I gag, tears begin to roll. Is this getting dangerous?

Fuka talked to me today, and I was real happy to hear from her. Does absences make the heart grow fonder, or does it make you forget? I really do miss her, and the thought of getting through a year without her seems like hell.

....As long as I have him, I can do no wrong. He's my best friend, and if something happened to him, I would be on my bed repeating how pointless my life is, unblinkingly. That's kinda severe.

Ariana gave me her fish and I named him Nao. I have no idea if it's male or female, but I like tha name Nao. It's short for Naozumi.

I need sleep. Night.