I was thinking aloud again to myself today.

"Why do I want to be thin?" I paused. "Well that's a stupid question. I wanna be hot. I want other to think I'm cute, and thin, and pretty."

Then I thought, it's pretty stupid. If I spent my whole life worrying about what others think of me, my life really is pointless. I'm searching for everyone's approval, but is it really worth it if I'm not happy?

Then other times I say "Fuck it."