I must admit, I am extremely jealous of everyone who gets to be with the people they love on Labor Day, while I'm stuck at work, tending to people's orders.

We actually had our first football game yesterday. Natuarally, we lost. We always lose. It's just the way it is.

My body is fighting something viral, and I'm losing. My glands are so large, they were actually sticking out from my skin last night. I can't remember the last time I've had so much mucus in my throat.

Not to mention I'm always cold. Last night, I put my down comforter and fuzzy blanket in the dryer so I could stay warm while going to sleep, when I had a sweatshirt and flannel pants on. It's not unusual to be a little over warm in the winter with that, but in August...I was a little cold.

I'm just so exhausted, I could go to bed right now, quarter after 8 as I write these words, and I can guarentee you, I could sleep through the night.

I woke up around 4 this morning with a raging headache so bad that it felt like my brain was being seperated by a scalple, piece by piece. I got up, took four, count them four asprin and went back to bed.

Okay, I really have to stop dwelling on this....

So I'll dwell on something else, like the past!

While at the football game last night, I was freezing my ass off. I was shivering so hard, it was amazing that the bleachers stayed up. Kyle, my ex-boyfriend saw this, sat behind me on the bleachers and wrapped me in his arms so that I could stay warm.

Ever since Kyle and I broke up, when he did stuff like that, it was extremely temporary and he was quite jokingly perverted about it. He would move his hands up to my breasts and pretend to enjoy it. Not this time. I sat there for all of half time and waited for him to act all perverted like, but he didn't. God, it was almost wierd.

I remember him doing that for me at football games. I'd be in my huge black sweatshirt with the hood pulled over my head, arms crossed and shivering to no end. He'd slip behind me, I'd sit between his legs and he'd put his arms around me to keep me warm.

"If only he knew
What was going right,
If only he knew,
I would not be alone tonight.
If only he knew,
What was going wrong,
If only he knew..."