God...I'm so nervous. I hate flying. Ever since I was a little girl, I've hated flying in airplanes. Day after tomorrow, I'm leaving for Key West. I can pray. I can pray with all my might, and I'm not sure if it will even make me feel better. I could think of him, and (yes it's corny as all hell, but it's true) gather strength. When I think of him, my heart races and my life suddenly doesn't seem so terrible.

There are quite a few songs that remind me of him, and they're all some of my favorites. 'Our' song was I Knew I Loved You by Savage Garden. The first time we danced was on New Year's about 5 minutes after the ball dropped. I was having a party, and Ariana turned it on. I still had my braces back then and had lots of friends to fall back on. I didn't know that Kendall existed. To this day, when I can't sleep, I put the song on repeat and begin to cry, so that I can sleep. Sometimes...it's all I can do.

Another song is "Stuck" by Stacie Orrico, which a quoted a few days ago, if you'll kindly scroll down and read the lyrics. Another is "Stairway To Heaven" by Led Zepplin. I don't know why, but whenever I hear it, it reminds me of him. I'm listening to it now. Any Avril Lavinge song is also included. When coming home from Toronto, I listened to my CD player with that CD on and fell asleep with my head on his shoulder, and his head on mine. One of my favorite memories.

Shaggy's "Angel" is yet another one. When I was cheating on Kyle with him, he called me Angel (and continued to do so until we broke up). Princess Meri thought it was so cute that even she called me Angel sometimes to get me to pay attention to her. I actually have a birthday present from her that's a ring that says Angel on it. I like it a lot and should start wearing it again. All my diary entries were signed Angel. Getting back to the story at hand, he sent me an mp3 that turned out to be "Angel". I even smile at it to this day. That is one that doesn't make me upset. It has such a happy story behind it.

My last one is "Clint Eastwood" by the Gorillaz. He wrote the chorus of it in my yearbook last year when we had just broken up and things were pretty wierd between us. I was excited that he was going to write in my yearbook, especially after what a terrible ordeal we just went through. God....I wish I never met Bryan sometimes. If I wouldn't have, I would probably still be with him.