Today was the day I went out to our new house (complete with a set of dad's porn) and paint over everything in the rooms. The walls are covered in obcenities, and pictures that could be explained as vulgar in the very least. But it's a house, and with TLC and a shit load of stuff from Home Depot, it'll be fine. We'll be renting it out in no time at all.

I feel hung over. Last night, I talked to him until about 12:30 or so. He had originally said that he felt closer to me after going to the mall. I was on cloud nine. I of course did not want to be disillusioned, so I asked him if he meant as a friend, or girlfriend. Of course he said friend. I expected to much out of myself. I became extremely upset and left immediately from my computer, crying. After half an hour of crying madly, I got out a notebook and wrote a new chapter in my book.

The 16 year old girl's parents had gone out for a date, after her brother had been put in a rehabilitation center for attempted suicide and she had just announced she was pregnant. She had rented three movies for the evening, but halfway through the second, she feels the need to run. She has never felt this need before, so she puts on her gym clothes and runs out the door. She ran past houses of old friends, whose names she's since forgotten since childhood, and begins to run up a hill that most girls call 'entrance to the stars' but guys call 'make out peak'. No one was there to her surprise, but noticed that her boyfriend's truck was somewhat secluded in a bunch of brush. She ran over to the car and looked in and saw her boyfriend and father of her unborn child sitting in the front seat of his truck with only jeans on and a girl wearing nothing but her bra and underwear. She opens the door, slams the little slut against the passenger side door and drags her boyfriend by the hair out onto the ground.

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"Do you want me to have this kid?!" I shouted angrilly, feeling a rising color in her cheeks.

"I don't know!" He said through gritted teeth. He was obviously in a good deal of pain.

“God dammit!” I yelled. “I’m getting an abortion! No child needs to have a shit face father like you! I hate you! I wish I’d never met you!” I screamed and ran away.

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She began to run towards the water tower. She climbs it and looks down to everything below her. She considers jumping, just to see if she could fly. She decideds her life is really just a dream, but a nasty little voice tells her that her best friend is indeed dead and her brother tried suicide. She climbed down from the tower and ran home, crying each on each step.

I just came back from Kendall’s house. I got to meet her sister for the first time. She’s pretty cool. Kendall started smoking right in front of me. I knew she smoked, but I felt so out of place since I was the only one not smoking. I wanted to try it, but I knew my mom would be back any minute. I couldn’t justify getting screwed over for my entire life over one puff of a cigarette. Not to mention he wouldn’t like it. I can’t betray him.