I never thought I would be so disappointed when I was told that I am no longer on the cast that I had been practicing with. I became very upset when I realized I wouldn’t be with Chris, Zavy, Laney, or Dennis (never mentioned him before, but I think I like him….) Even though I have moved casts, I’m not even guaranteed a part yet. I can’t see why I’m stuck with the cast who doesn’t know any lines, gets yelled at one the minute every minute, and I know practically no one.

I contracted larengitus, and mom will make me go to school tomorrow. I hate this. This isn’t my life. God…at least I hope it isn’t.

Can you fall out of love? I think I did. Truthfully, I don’t think I’ve been in love with him for quite some time. I was bored. Worshipping him was something to do, and it took up a good deal of time. Dreaming, writing, thinking about him. Is it possible that I’m out of love? I don’t know. I really want to crawl back out onto the dating scene. I won’t allow myself to do it though. If I have a man in my life, I can’t have sex with him. I can’t devote myself like that. (Oh irony...)