I hate the age I'm in! I want to be 4 years old, run up to my mum (when she never yelled at me, but had a firm hand), grab the stubby ponytail and suck on it. She would hold me close, rub my back and wouldn't even tell me that sucking on the tip of my ponytail was something only babies do.

I don't want to leave Junior High. I don't want him to forget about me. I don't want...that one girl to have....that one guy. It's pissing me off. I haven't wanted to cut my wrists more.

And I only have 3 days left....