Mina saw my face stained with tears at lunch, and she sat next to me and wiped my tears away with the sleeve of her kimono. She kissed me on the forehead and said she'd be here for me.
My face is numb. I can't feel anything, I can't move anything. I looked in the mirror and wondered, who is that girl? Why does she look so tired? What did she do?
Hell, even my grades are suffering. C, C, D+, C-, A, and A-. Those two A's are in Theater and Band. How did that happen? I had nothing below a 85%, but when Fuka dropped the bomb that she was moving, my grade were attached to a rock and dropped into a deep ocean trench. This was a minor three weeks ago, and I managed to fuck my grades up that badly....
Truthfully, what I need right now is a warm blanket and to be wrapped up in Dan's arms. Maybe then, and only then would I smile. I really feel for Dan and it's actually happened just as I thought and hoped it would. I started going out with Dan and suddenly all my little crushes faded away to nothing. It sucks though, to see all these couples in the hallway, and know that my other half is on the other side of town.
Speaking of lovely little couples, guess who I saw walking down the hall and holding hands. Olivia and Richard of course. I stopped when I saw their fingers enlaced as they passed me. Travis bumped into me and yelled at me, but I didn't care. I was too shocked.
It's not that I still like Richard, because I'm mad about my boyfriend, but I was kind of hurt, but satisfied at the same time. Did I cause that relationship to blossom? No of course not, but I'm positive I helped it along.
Tomorrow we travel to Rockford to play in play offs. It's a three hour ride in a charter bus with Tim, Rick, Val, Mina...the band I should say. No Olivia though. Richard won't be happy about that....
I've been awake for too long now. It's time for bed.
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