My friend Jessica that I made in Tustin when I was down there for my exchange student program, didn't make it to the final cut. She's no longer an outbound canidate, but rather just a regular student. I guess she got a phone call. That part is peculiar, since the Rotary doesn't call, but rather sends letters. The letter will either read "you were accepted" or "you weren't accepted". Is it possible that someone was fucking with her?

I sent her this letter:

What do you mean you're not going?! You got a phone call?! I can't believe you weren't accepted! Can you think of why you weren't?

Now I'm really scared. If you weren't accepted I sure as hell wasn't.

You really need to try again Jessie! Jake, did you possibly get a phone call or your letter yet?

I've been deathly afraid lately about this whole exchange thing lately. I'm not wavering a bit that I don't want to do this, cause I do, but I was afraid this was going to happen if I met these people who are on exchange. These people are pretty much fluent in English, and it's only their 4th month here! I'm not a slow learner, but what if I'm stuck someplace, no money, no phone, no anything and all the people around me speak some foreign language?! They say you need to sit down and cry, regardless of pride, but put the pride aside, I'd be scared shitless and feel stupid!

And now more than ever I'm regretting Iceland as my number one, and the worst part is, I was told I'll most likely get it from my YEO! I had no idea people from Iceland spoke Icelandic until I went to the conference....Oh God. I'm going to spiral into a panic attack.

But I'm being terribly selfish. Jessica, I want you to give me a call. If you don't want the long distance bill, e-mail me back with your number. Mine is: (***)-***-****.

I'm still in complete shock that you didn't get in. Dear God! Is it possible someone was playing a joke on you? It has to be.....

I g2g. So sorry Jessie!

Annie-Chan

She didn't make it, and it just blew me away.