I went to see Bryan today. Well, more like when I got off the bus, he was walking toward me. He's grown so much. Here's this 10th grader, no coat, hair perfect, talking about him skipping class to see me. My knees went weak and I felt like I didn't deserve to be standing in the presence of him. I just stood there in my dumpy, purple, marshmellow jacket. I felt like a stupid little five year old that lost her mother. I felt so little....

Last night, he lied to me about the whole 'I lost my virginity' thing. He said he wanted me to pass a test. Apparently I passed. After he told me and i went to bed, I realized that I couldn't be in love with him. It just wasn't right or true.