In ACS today, we debated about freedom of speech. I brought up a point and people started laughing at me. Okay okay, so the analogy I provided at the time wasn't exactly...put in the best words, but I was still embarresed. Yeah, I included something about Canada but atleast I tried unlike the only shitfaced little brats in my class.

Whenever I look at the two kids who sit next to me, Tom or Brittany, I get pissed. They never do anything, so they get special treatment because they're not motivaded. Let me say that I'm not either and I'm in Honors and pull some pretty sweet grades out of my ass.

The guy three seats down from me, Connor, is now applying lip gloss. Not as a joke, but he 'likes the taste'. If you think about that, it could be a very perverted sentence.

I can't remember a time in life where I didn't think: "Life sucks and then you die". I've been feeling lately and finally, not acting on it. Princess Meri and him interact. A lot. I get jealous easily. He told me earlier that I was his best friend, but everything is about Princess Meri. When we're on the phone, he's pretty good about not talking about her, but he doesn't need to. I see it all at lunch. Sometimes, like now, I want to smack him upside the head and tell him to talk to me.

Why doesn't he just admit that he likes her? It's not like I care. I know I'll never get another chance, so screw it. I don't wanna call him, but this whole mall thing. Was it really a yes or a yes that means he won't act on it? He's not that kind of guy, but who knows, he did dump me and cry about it. He's such a hypocrite sometimes, but aren't we all?