It's very cold in here. I'm shaking. Trembling in partial coldness and partial nervousness. I said earlier how I was drowning in a lake of questions. I have now sunk completely to the bottom and fish are picking off my flesh. I should get into the hot tub again and just relax. I can't control the world, therefore I musn't worry, and yet I do.

20/20 was very sad tonight. It was started off by introducing girls in the military who've been raped and sexualy assaulted. The poor girls were punished on grounds of having sex in the dorms, and the men who raped them were let off. Life isn't fair. It's things like that, that really piss me off. It hits close to home with me because I've had a bad run in with sexual assault. I don't want to talk about it.

20/20 continues with Give Me A Break and a man was arrested and sentenced to life because a man entered his son's room and he shot the burglar with an unregistered gun. The burglar survived and they are both in the same prison.

I should have gone to the dance. I feel like I missed something. Something huge. I want to call him, but I'm too shy. What am I supposed to say? Whatever. I don't care. I guess it's more what Sue, his mother, would do. It's 11:05. No matter how much she likes me, she wouldn't be thrilled if I woke her up. Of course, nor would I. I'm extremely fond of Sue and would at times consider her to be a second mother. She was always so kind and nurturing to me. She may not even be home. She may be out partying. Another thing I love about her. She's so spontanious.

That's it! I've had it. I'm grabbing my purple phone and dialing him up! The worst that could happen is that I'd be yelled at...eesh....