My head is swimming full of questions, and I'm in the middle of the lake and drowning. I'm just troubled right now I guess. As you may know from yesterday's entry, there is a dance tonight. Princess Meri is going, along with the posse of people I used to rely on for anything. I feel like I'm being lied to. He says he's not going, but he's lied to me before. I know I'm being selfish, bitchy, stubborn, stupid and everything in between, but I can't think about him finding another person, especially Princess Meri.

I don't know if you know why I have such a grudge against Princess Meri. Him and Princess Meri went out for a week while I was going out with Bryan. This was in March of last year. Then when me and him started going again, it got ugly. I admit that I never stopped talking about him after that, especially to Princess Meri.

I love Jimmy Fallon. He's just so fucking funny. "You like fine cookin'? Because you know what? I got a Swanson dinner in the freezer with your name on it!" He's great. I found out why Tina Fey is only on Weekend Update. She's head writer on SNL, and she doesn't want to be on a lot of them and she just like Weekend Update the best. I wish she'd be on more, but she's so awesome, it doesn't matter that she's only on one, because just one great performance=ten okay with her.

I'm going to contemplate my life, and the fact of how jealous I am of Princess Meri and how worried I am that he's at the dance and chilling with Princess.